today i juz felt like questioning bout the most intangible thing in life... 愛.
why do ppl want to find lurv and lurv?........ is it because they want to affirm that in the vast world at least 1 person can truly care about you as much as you would care for yourself, thus not feeling that your trash and that you're worth something to another person? but isnt that selfish? ironic isnt it?.. when we hear phrases like selfless love, maybe i'm wrong,

when ur in lurv u treat it like a normality and when ur out of it.. ;fresh from all the wounds of breakup, it seems like u'll die from its absence, and scramble to find that "high" u were in juz weeks before.... it is at tis time when love seems so weak, wad was thought to be unbreakable, impossible to destroy is now in pieces laying in front of u.... taunting u and haunting you at how foolish u were to believe in it.

things happened recently.. and i believe its for a reason, the effect is always due to some actions in the past... everytime i tink bout it......... i stagger and collapse, the pain of bringing back the memories when i'm almost done forgetting them, its punishment at its best.

but even when at the end of all tis, i find that there's always another way, another path, wad most will call hope, life's cruel but its merciful.. it gives u a way out and to start afresh. i gained experience and a new friendship has blossomed bet me and raine, i tink loss makes things more precious around you and i realli dun want to lose it realli DUN WANT TO LOSE IT ANYMORE......