やあ！！

haha... had intestive jap class todae 6 hours in total.. tired ... went out wif classmates together..... sensei joined us.. SO INTERESTING!
hahaha kk see the photos

keep having this feeling...
like I'M operating my body from behind a console.... outta sync

past days been somewat like twilight zone.... trapped and life's on HOLD...
the hole i dug myself is getting deeper and harder to get out everydae. keep tinkin of him, tink is becos i'm lonely and those thoughts surface......... cant be truthful to the people i realli care about....

i realli care bout u

its funny how things turned out..... but do i want to care bout u? i dun want to is the truth yet i care....... sux

news bout the renu contact lense thingy is scary... ppl goin blind ... in the name of vainity..
amusing....
final fantasy X, dunno how many of u played tis b4.. playing it now... nice story.. but cant compare to the earlier versions...

been listening to tis song since sec 3 never realli gotten tired of it...
tokin bout the accoustic version onli

Sweet misery
Michelle Branch

I was lost
And you were found
You seemed to
Stand on solid ground
I was weak
And you were strong
And me and my guitar
We strummed along, oh

Sweet misery
You cause me
That's what you called me
Sweet misery
You cause me

I was blind
But oh, how you could see
You saw the beauty in everything
Everything and me

I would cry
And you would smileYou'd stay with me
A little while

Sweet misery
You cause me
That's what you called me
Sweet misery

You cause me

And in my heart I see, oh
What you're doing to me
And in my heart I see, oh
Just how you wanted it to be
Sweet misery

Oh, whoa

Sweet misery
You cause me
That's what you called me
Sweet misery

You cause me
And in my heart I see, oh
What you're doing to me
And in my heart I see, oh
Just how you wanted it to be
Sweet misery

I was weak
And you were strong
And me and my guitar
We strummed along

have u ever woken up and felt like u were on the wrong side of bed...
well it DIDNT happen for mi, but as tthe day progressed it sure seemed to progress into a nightmarish one...

wad to do............................... y am i accompaning MEOW so much.... hiaz mi being selfish again...

暑いな！　すごく暑いね！　暑い　wif a capital A

was SCORCHING hot todae, now back home.. いま　老天爷 decided to blanket the sky wif dark clouds... 4pm but look like 7pm.. toot....

feel like overcooked cookies now... btw was playing tennis juz now........... at PINE GROVE .... near clementi wif chris. hee hee imPROVED leh... can handle his balls but dunno if he was holding back. HIAZ, left my racket at sis's hse which is in puggol

goin to start full time JAP CLASS haha... back to school.. but learning new language.......
after that off i go to army.. juz nid to complete intermediate 1 and i can take the jap exam from JAPAN..

:( didnt get anything for V day... goes hid in a corner and stones.... instead was in ikoma .. wif NISHIO sensei.. hahaha.... went home wif my "date" :joy.. hahaha o well, at least i wasnt alone tis yr... YIPEEE improved sia.

mummy's curry for lunch todae made my tummy beri UPSET... lucky wasnt serious during tennis but on the way back ... the muscle walls were violently contracting... smooth muscles..
CHURNING the weird curry....

kk scheduling tomolo's session CHAO

50% BLEACH-ed my hair....

1st time do anything to my hair.... (ok actualli 2nd time..) but tis time i do myself.
suppose to leave the dam thing in for like 15 min. chickened out after 10... it was hurting my scalp!

which resulted in me having a disgusting BENG brown... YUCKS

packing up... found britney's 1ST ALBUM and started listening to it...
MEMORIES swell.......... haha... no lar.. bluff u de.. dun have much lasting memory from that time but noe wad? her 1st album is fabulous.. smite mi for using the F word.. XD

oh.. gd days of SMOULDERING POP MUSIC...(is there such a word?).... its REALLI POP...!
my room is suddenly filled wif BUBBLES!

like tis song called "the beat goes on"

oh yar went to sushi tei to EAT TODAE!!!!! ..... wif them all of course! smug look... total of $200++ spent ... had LOTS TO EAT.
recall:
1 cha soba wif ebi tenpura ... (k folks its PRONOUCED as TEN-PU-RA. not TEM-pu-ra....)
cha means tea and ebi means prawn and tenpura is the way they cook it...

lots of SUSHI and tenPURA! of course TONNES OF salmon(raw)!!! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa jap food craving has been curbed! (onli for the nex 3 weeks)

haha... SUSHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII noticed that the older folks dun realli appreciate jap cuisine cos they always stick to the SAFE things eg. teriyaki don yakitori etc.

neway.... tennis SUXED ... didnt play for 1 week and totalli DEPROVED! argh!

(i do not blog for others, i blog for myself)

just one
the same old memorises are brought back out again, night is when my other self takes control.......... i keep replaying those thoughts over and over in my head and juz let it out, all sorts of fuckedup emotions, and they wash my heart, i feel bitter next jealous then happy...... who is "i" ?........... aiya .. toot.

nites

o.0 feels good huh? woke up on the right side of the bed todae, feels GD

smitten,
i really dunno where is goin to, feel like asking but is it realli neccessary? my mind is clouded, take a step forward in love but be blowned 10 steps back by lust.

tennis wif them was BAD... arrived late and halfway thru there was a blackout.. so ended up playing less than an hour of TENNIS
.... toot!!!!!!! mimics HOMER whenever he does something stupid. it feels as though i was rushed out of the toilet... haha
business wif tennis was not done...

loner by nature or neccesity?

was at mac wif the diana and gang awhile ago, mi and other guy incidently also called wes... was queueing for FOOD, he was offering to get icecream for everyone, but i didnt realli want icecream, wanted yogurt. so he asked me y was i queueing, kept quiet for awhile then he told mi to "DIY" which was interpretted by me buy urself, returned to the table where the others were sitting... then they started questioning me. how come i got yogurt... :x... cant i choose wad i want?.. wes "senior" came back and they said i wasnt a team player... tootified... they were juz kidding but these kinda things stays wif u even if u noe it wasnt serious... hmmm... world is cruel.. we are sensitive... BAD combination........

its lidat back in jc too.. the guys wld all eat at the same place....... then i'll be like... hmmm dun realli feel like eatin that or maybe cos they were eating that and i simply got pissed at the idea of eating the same thing as them and wld patronise other stalls... (partly due to the fact the school food isnt realli tastebud friendly)
guess i dun realli tink bout others...... wad's being so nice good for?... i'll do it onli when i treasure them....

missing daniel......... hmmm questions myself... you noe wad is the best way to remember something... that is to try and forget it. the harder u try the stronger the memory....

live with your mistakes and acknowledge it as part of you that's perhaps the only way to move on in ur life.... O.0!!! omg i juz spouted some unknown sentence ....

.... i see a trend in my blogging patterns its starts out nice, then it takes 1 wrong turn thereafter everything spirals out of proportions especially bout my LIFE and how everything in it seems less pleasant.... argh....

i'm realli malleable to influence from those close around me ;wish it wasnt so... hate it when i see my posts and see how truly conflicted i am as a person.... feels like a warzone inside torned apart by so much self conflict...................... tink its becos its getting late .. sayounara

held you close as we shut our eyes........ i cld only feel your warmth, time stops; we're alone.... yes we're alone... forever i'll treasure you, i promise. i found peace tonite