got waken up by ダンニル　when he called my hse
got urprised by アイヴァン for a belated bdae .... 1st who went "1st n 2nd base" wif mi

y todae?... its a sign？... those who tugged at my heart until i cried and cried till i was numb.... 無駄、無理......

when he called in the morning.. fell into slight depression on how i ended up here.... and tried forcing myself to sleep...
when i woke up again, the day started....

「the hatch from the series LOST is so OVERATED.... dumb thing....」 btw... watching lost season 2 marathon from epi1 until 17 much more fun than waiting for 1 episode per week...

running was bad.. 12.15min.. "dots" nid to erase 45 seconds....and reach the ideal C pass grrade which is 11.45

i dun even have a picture of him... wif mi anymore.. dumb computer crashed... in fact neither of them.......
its was so dumb lar.....

"excuse me, did anyone call?"
"NO"
"sorrie bye"
he sounded sad... maybe its the morning grogginess.. u noe when u juz wake up ur voice always juz sounds a tad bit off. like u're sick wif flu.

btw... i wasnt mistaken u cant be mistaken when u spent like minimum 4 hrs tokin on the phone since sec 2.. until jc

the conversation, so short but immediately recognised his voice... possible reason: that day i accidently called him .. cos my phone wasnt locked although deleted his contact from my address it was still in my sim and somehow the phone managed to call via SIM...
maybe he thought i wanted to tok to him..... i dunno... anyway before all the stupid things tat came out of my mouth ... i was alreadi veri unhappy wif the situation..... felt like i was filling a blackhole... no matter wad i put into it... it juz won't do

maybe i do want to tok..... he's been appearing in my mind alot.... the world is juz wad it is; filled wif a bunch of clueless ppl living in it...

love, friendship, intangible things ... they are juz wad they are: INTANGIBLE... so stop tinkin how the world shd be cos it'll nv be lidat... shuddup .... dream shatters.... annoying.... goin in nex friday

jap class ended.. jaq is in japan now... lent her my dictionary dumb rite... smitten by a smile ... pretty girls shd juz die... they noe they can trample all over u and nth will happen. Incidentally they'll use it to the max... guys are left usualli clueless

最後クラスは後明日で本当に終わる。。。悲しくて、いろんな気持ちが持っていて、楽しかっただから。さ。。。来週金曜ぼく陸軍に入隊しなきゃだ。何を起こる、知らない。。でも、この運命は避けられない。。。。。。なんのことができる今まだわからん。陸軍でならえる？ ぜひ新しい友を作りたいです。 最近心に虚しい。。。。　全てもない似てる。全てもなくなりました。 「つづく」

like i'm not in pain...　
that's wad i tink of when i wake up.
いつも満足してない人間は。。。[humans will nv satisfied.. ]

maybe not everydae but happening much too often.
''看开点吧,'' that's wad i tink too...
i haven apply for U yet OMG!

shoes for jeans.. cannot be sports shoes... it juz doesnt cut it...
new hunt for the perfect pair BEGINS........

birthday ... FANTARSUTIC.... lol... hey... its getting better wif each passing year.... :D
well.. kinda tired.. will load up the pictures.. when i get the photos from those with the cameras..

hey bought a new jeans from topman.. their jeans RAWK... buy onli from there levi is.. so COMMON.. urgh...

a couple in a bus... common sight.. yet i was flooded by memories...

when was it.. i cant recall.. but it wasnt long enuf that i cldnt remember...... hmmm.. holding hands in a crowded bus.... announcing to the world that we were together........ did i noe it wld end... tink i did... but i kept lying to myself....

6sense... its nth more than the most probable future ur mind can compute.... dumb......... neway.. bdae comin.. i wonder if anything's goin to happen tomolo... maybe i'll be surprised by a nice PREZZIE from raine?

haha....

went CRYSTAL JADE ramen xiao long bao at taka todae... for lunch/dinner.. was so full...

DAMN NICE ... in lurv wif the place... cheap and SUPER FOODD...
nex time i go promise i take PHOTOS of the food k

btw my bday coming... lemme seee

karaoke session coming up, ltr nid to go practise...
bbq at tanjong rhu,
FANTASTIC food at goodwood :D been frequentin that same res for my bdae for the past god noes when... I JUZ CANT get enuf of it :D

todae accidently called ys, ..... cos nv lock my phone... sian rite? when u call the person u totalli dun wan to call.. but kept the no. in ur phone juz in case :( ... and i thought he was the one calling mi and i went to send a sms saying: wad.

SO PAI SEH... well who cares... i did... loser me....

あなたに嫌いの時、このあと詞を思い出さなければならない　realli want to take raine for keeping company lurvs u

３週間までに陸軍に入らなければ。悲しくて、あいにくの事です。ここまで、ずっと　ずっと。。。諦めない。

生きてよ。僕の未来はひかるから。。。生きなさい！

liew... pants from 日语运功大法

went to tis "Tarven place" around east coast for dad's bday, ate like a pig AGAIN..... had like 4 plates of salmon sashimi..., escargot.... took 1 had 1 bite passed it to mother... YUCKS, super huge mushrooms wasnt veri nice like my chinese style stir friend mushrooms better...chicken qualidallius (anyhow spell) tuscan chicken mango pudding ... tiramisu, caramel delite..

watchin' jigoku shoujo as i'm typing... look out for the p.s. damn unnerving series,

morning saw hingman ... returned my books to mi.. .... girls get away wif army.. the world is lop sided.. boo hoo...
went for nus open hse ...... and ntu's one too.. but somehow felt the nus shd be the place, neway... lots of goodies got picked up at that open hse.... mostlystuff i dun nid... like magazines and paper weightes and swissknifes... liew... enuf trash to last mi till i go there haha..

haven reg for uni yet, tink soon ba.. or else no time liao.. hiaz its so funny lar. goin to take the life sci course at nus .. but right now the onli thing i can do is to juz reg for the faculty i wanna get into...

living and living ... no real goal in sight... nothing realli accomplished..... goin to aim for jlpt 3 (jap test, says that at jlpt3 i shd be able to read most jap stuff and carry out daily conversations... doubt so.. they're teaching onli gaijin stuff.. nid to figure out the other stuff by myself...) for end of tis yr which means i gotta slave over tonnes of stuff... and watch like tonnes of DORAMA ..drama for those non j speakers. and ANIME... nothing bad bout the latter though
miss my friends who are in army, miss my friends who i no longer talk, those who decide not to tok to mi, miss those who are nt toking to mi now.. haha

army QUICKLY come lar... hope i dun regret wad i'm saying now.. crosses fingers

[完]

p.s. jigoku shoujo (地獄少女) is bout tis hell guardian/god wadever... u say a pray to her to exact vengence onto someone... neway.. she'll pass u tis voodoo doll thingy.. made of straw wif a red string tied round the neck of it. when u unwind it u'll indicate that u realli want to go thru wif it.. she and her team of "vengence" spirits will go scare the shet out of the person and bring him to hell in exchange u'll also go to hell but u'll continue living on earth until u die naturalli... haha...
the gd part of the series comes from how the spirits scare the SHET out of the evil guy that forced the person to resort to such means

tink someone's angry wif mi... ... cant be bothered

some ppl are juz trash in tis world: pure trash. And trash sometimes attracts trash and you end up wif a rubbish heap.. *stinks*

well sink of being wif trash. there's nth worth in that pile of stinkin trash to dig deeper for,

been hanging alot round yc and the more i'm around her the more i tink she's trash, dunno y, juz trash talks ppl and swats ppl's ego around without a second thought... can call it being truthful but i tink its juz plain being mean to the ppl around u.... dun tink u actualli care.. to say hurtful things to ur parents, she reminds me of mingfu..... easily forgetable....

been searching for allies in my world and hardly find anyone, is it realli that hard for everyone or juz me onli?

bleh bleh bleh... look, tink i look damn KUAI in tis pic

爱上你让我的世界更加美丽
爱上你自然如呼吸
爱上你甜蜜得身边的人都妒嫉
爱上你是我最珍惜的幸福

只有你能了解我所有的情绪
只有你能包容我不时地坏脾气
只有你懂得应该如何哄我开心所以我爱你

有些人爱到害怕所以从此不再爱
有些人爱过所以相信不需要再爱
有些人爱到自己名字也记不起来
有些人爱到不能想象没有你的未来

results are back...
maths B
chem A
bio B

gp b3

hmmm... no comments anyway god's been kind to me and life's kinda peaceful now............ smooth sailing ready to enter army...

basicalli tink everyone did all right nth TOTALLI horrible... but cld have been better i guess, tinkin bout him again, and him, these 2 screwed up my past, hiaz nt goin to give someone else the chance to do it again >:(

random thought of the moment:
ppl shd lurv more and accept lurv more readily..... tink the world has enuf suspicion and hate to go round for the comin donkey god noes years...