mood: down....... the more u try and control... the more u lose it...

hmmm..... feels weird when i cant use my camera... reminds meself.. its spoilt!
hmm drew tis sometime ago...

pretty rough but turns out great on the psp... :P
hmmm..... looks like my wish came true..........

my granpa died... kinda sad... wished it wasnt like tis.... :(
at the funeral.. beri bz... sorrie cant entertain!

made a bet wif raine ytd... said that i wld ignore a certain someone... see how it goes

glass breaks
i'm throwing it away... trash dun stay

i'm goin shopping .... lemme shop pls

went out wif joy and sam wif him....
... juz had a black and white recollection thingy happen to me as i try to remember wad happened....

he seems cold......... i dunno why he's cold to me....... i want to noe,
maybe not ba.... dunno lar i'm addicted.... help mi cure myself

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

friend.so.shallow

.... tried to go back... afraid to move forward.....
stuck to the ground....... he didnt call ... didnt message...
nothing from him even though his not in camp........ gulliable.... i was and still am

so lonely..... i wished there was someone out there juz for mi... guess not ba dream too much liao..... dream and no action... so how am i suppose to go bout findin the "ONE"

go clubbing? wif who?... wad'll happen there.. siao ar... crazy...
who in my circle noes bout tis side of me not much now even fewer...

relationships wif so many ppl but yet somewhat distant i feel abandoned... abandoned by the world... family no one... sianz.................. sinkin back in .......... knew it was comin... traded the bit that was left to get a fresh breath the wish ended i'm back to my dark world...

i'm back

烦.超无奈.
hurt.numb.nth's left to be hurt about.

piece of my heart; mutilatedremoved
try hard to find any feelin' . can onli remember how painful.

...... someone chose to let go of me in his memories, i was forgotten,
save me, with every blow i grow weary... i grow to become someone i hate.

guess there's always 2 sides to things.... the more pain u have endured the less pain u'll feel when the nex one hits home... the 1st time heart was move was the most joyeous but the 1st time my heart was broken.. it was the saddest..... thereafter everything juz becomes a blur as i lie on the floor dazed by the sadness from the 1st....
lemme recover lemme feel as strongly as before again その願いを聞いてくれ

passed out from tekong liao....
PHEW big sigh of relieve

trying veri hard to make things work but guess i tried too hard till it broke....



i realli dunt noe wad he feels.... it makes me so pissed juz becos of that... neway... it sux, its goin to be history repeat... not handsome or charmingzZ enuf to keep anyone close to me...
bit sad.. no! change; veri sad hiaZ

hopefully ys wun ditch mi again.. supposedly goin to meet him ltr dunno still on not....
life's hard........ its getting harder everyday.......

dun even noe if anyone reads tis anymore..... they say 1st love is the sweetest.. i tink its the most bitter if things dun work out.... learn to walk away..... i cant walk away............ there's a chain linkin mi to those thoughts i so desperately want to forget erase.... its not helping when life's put on pause cos of army.....

i drives mi crazy when there's no one out there xcept for my family that truely gives any shet bout you....

enuf of tis melancholy.... well guys i saw tis damn cool pair of sneakers on a mag that day.. hope i can get it... :( crosses fingers hope its not sold yet...

歌手：すがしかお
xxxHolic

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goin to pass out from bmtc soon in fact its juz 3 days away now.... goin to miss all of them from my section.. realli i will even those who i dun realli like cos they make up the unique bunch of arses that is section 4

btw had alot of pictures on my cam phone. but my Mother... praise be washed it along wif my clothes which i left in cos i was in a hurry to go out and juz left stuff strewn on the floor... sux...

marched 24km in like 9 hrs ... came back now having a fever.. i'm all hot and fuzzy and naseous ..... goin to sleep tink ltr i goin to grab my shoes..